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Flavian( flaveeyearn)
Monday, December 25, 2006
at last...the funeral is over...and i also want to thank Alvin,Pam,Syl,Andrew,Hubert,Isabel and Aaron for coming down...i really appreciate it...this five daes...i been veri emo unstable...my mood swings veri fast...and believe that the devils are making fun out of me...i don wan hold joss stick for one round...then ah ling jie jie...sae...'count yourself as a grandson..'it bother me the whole 2 daes...of course....almost all my relatives don rilli tok to me animore..becos i didnt hold joss...but todae..i gt no choice but to hold...and i hate those 'ching chang' sound...bang here and there...todae almost stood up and shouted and ask them to stop....ytd...i found out that..the youngest priest is 16...omg...so young sia....dotz....
lucky still got ah imm jie jie for guidance on what to do and not...if nt...i sin big time liao....
lucky still got ah imm jie jie for guidance on what to do and not...if nt...i sin big time liao....
SIMPLE ME
Y 10:08 PM
Y 10:08 PM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
my grandma passed away this morning...so is kinda a sad thing,nt kinda...is a sad thing...and also my trip to muar was also cancelled...no choice...i rush down and at teh same time..calling syl...halfwae...donno y...telling her...i hold tears for veri long and hard....when gg to end...i faster sae bb and hang up...of course teaers are strolling down my eyes...when i reach there...relatives were there...and they show me faces...=.=
i went home to hav a bath...then i went back there...then my relatives wan me to follow my other cousin to bring my grandma down..of course i help...then at there...my mom force me to wear those funny funny shirt and of course hold joss stick but of course..i did nt pray to 'them'...i already sin against God already...I was there seeking forgivness every moments....I hope He will forgiv me...then after walking one round...i can at last take it off...phew...
then i was bored wad...so went to burn joss paper...burn out of the fun...and was there toking to God and seeking forgivness...so chit chat...,burn....chit chat..till at nite...Suddenly my mom told me tt i cannot go to the christmas party organise by my aunty becos my body gt the so called 'dirty things' tt bring bad luck..omg...they are veri idotic sia...still sae i nt clean..must be clean then can go in..omg...i told my mom...even if i nt clean..i got go church in the morning..so will also get clean...wa...
i went home to hav a bath...then i went back there...then my relatives wan me to follow my other cousin to bring my grandma down..of course i help...then at there...my mom force me to wear those funny funny shirt and of course hold joss stick but of course..i did nt pray to 'them'...i already sin against God already...I was there seeking forgivness every moments....I hope He will forgiv me...then after walking one round...i can at last take it off...phew...
then i was bored wad...so went to burn joss paper...burn out of the fun...and was there toking to God and seeking forgivness...so chit chat...,burn....chit chat..till at nite...Suddenly my mom told me tt i cannot go to the christmas party organise by my aunty becos my body gt the so called 'dirty things' tt bring bad luck..omg...they are veri idotic sia...still sae i nt clean..must be clean then can go in..omg...i told my mom...even if i nt clean..i got go church in the morning..so will also get clean...wa...
SIMPLE ME
Y 9:18 PM
Y 9:18 PM
Friday, December 15, 2006
yesterdae=>my 12hrs of sleep is so called return...went to ton to plae mahjong although i didnt plae much....i didnt expect to stay awake the whole 12hrs..haha...when i reach home in the morning...alot of funny funny thing happen...i slept in bus and woke up in the wrong bus stop....i washing clothes...forgot to take the tube out,then the whole kitchen is wet...i slept at 12..wanting to wake up at 12.30...but..woke up at 1.30..was late to go meet yuen ting to go parkway to buy christmas present for some ppl but things there are ex,so didnt buy...then it happen to rain...reach office damm cold...veri veri cold...so feel sick and leg very pain...told john and wenmt home 1hr early..but still went to pasar malam after tt..dotz..reach home at nite...'POMP' on the bed...slept for 12 hrs...haha...
todae woke up quite late at 1....actually the sleep is so gd...i went out at 3..to taka orchard to buy christmas present lo....found some gd stuff...hope the ppl will like it becos i don rilli know wad to buy for them...i done half of the shopping at 5..hand gt buy bag small bag..ppl looking at me and trying to show me 'y does a guy buy so many...like a gal sia..lol....'actually tiking of taking a bus..tik don wan..paiseh..so take a cab...reach home at 5.30..quickly put my stuff there and rush out...went i reach bus stop..73 run away liao...diao...lazy to wait...took a cab...then reach toa payoh and waited for sheryl...then went to shop and save to buy some drinks...reach office at 7.10..john nt there...so slack till 7.30...then start to work....work till 10....quite hungry...sher house gt chicken wings...so ask yuan ting to accompany me to mac to eat...i share wif her alot of my life tt God had done....i had a feeling that i had did 'something wrong' le....omg....donno whethetr to share wif zr and others...
todae woke up quite late at 1....actually the sleep is so gd...i went out at 3..to taka orchard to buy christmas present lo....found some gd stuff...hope the ppl will like it becos i don rilli know wad to buy for them...i done half of the shopping at 5..hand gt buy bag small bag..ppl looking at me and trying to show me 'y does a guy buy so many...like a gal sia..lol....'actually tiking of taking a bus..tik don wan..paiseh..so take a cab...reach home at 5.30..quickly put my stuff there and rush out...went i reach bus stop..73 run away liao...diao...lazy to wait...took a cab...then reach toa payoh and waited for sheryl...then went to shop and save to buy some drinks...reach office at 7.10..john nt there...so slack till 7.30...then start to work....work till 10....quite hungry...sher house gt chicken wings...so ask yuan ting to accompany me to mac to eat...i share wif her alot of my life tt God had done....i had a feeling that i had did 'something wrong' le....omg....donno whethetr to share wif zr and others...
SIMPLE ME
Y 11:54 PM
Y 11:54 PM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
came back from pasar malam with yuen ting and tt shu yuan....she damm violent sia...anihow beat ppl without opening eye...haha...working till this fridae and quit le....weee....get pay tml...haha
somehow....past are flashing and coming back....i had been having attacks on it...lots of emotion,super duper sensitive....juz becos of one incident...i had nt been able to control my emotion and my mindset on it...i want to forget everything and juz focus on the present.but somehow....i had this feeling that,no matter wad i do....things are still there...it cannot be change or removed or delete.wad to do?i cannot blame on anione,but myself for being so naive so stupid at tt time.haix...
somehow....past are flashing and coming back....i had been having attacks on it...lots of emotion,super duper sensitive....juz becos of one incident...i had nt been able to control my emotion and my mindset on it...i want to forget everything and juz focus on the present.but somehow....i had this feeling that,no matter wad i do....things are still there...it cannot be change or removed or delete.wad to do?i cannot blame on anione,but myself for being so naive so stupid at tt time.haix...
SIMPLE ME
Y 11:55 PM
Y 11:55 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
wow...this few daes quite shag...and juz came back from dinner with LS family....two more weeks to muar trip....damm rayson....awhile sae wan go..awhile sae don wan....><
Actually gt testimony to share de....on my grandma miracle healing,but nt rilli healed but there is rilli a miracle....my grandma suppose to be at china for 4 months...and was having cancer....and is breast cancer the last stage....she managed to survive there for 4 months which is thank God...then managed to reach singapore although she is veri veri sick....then went to Singapore General Hospital.and managed to stay there for 2 weeks and nvm....her condition are quite bad becos her blood pressure is quite low...then she managed to stay there for two weeks...few daes ago,the doctor said she was nt ready for discharged and will passed away half wae thru back home in the ambulance.but it did nt.she managed to reach home and the doctors were shocked and surprised...they did nt expect her to reach home....HALLELUJAH...there a reason behing it,the dae after pastor khong preach that God is a healer and He WANTS to heal,i was nt quite confident abt it,but gt no choice,i had to bring up tt faith,i reach the hospital in her ward,i said a silent prayer....and guess wad,the next dae,her breathing and pulse were under control,but the blood pressure was still low....i prayed for the whole week like nv prayed be4..then i finally prayed tt for wtv sin or barrier blocking from healing,i prayed tt He will cleans and clear all the blocking,then the next dae i went to see her,her blood pressure gt control.AMEN~ thank GOd for everything..rilli...he done alot of thing and i am going to trust him although this shld be in the first place.AMEN
Actually gt testimony to share de....on my grandma miracle healing,but nt rilli healed but there is rilli a miracle....my grandma suppose to be at china for 4 months...and was having cancer....and is breast cancer the last stage....she managed to survive there for 4 months which is thank God...then managed to reach singapore although she is veri veri sick....then went to Singapore General Hospital.and managed to stay there for 2 weeks and nvm....her condition are quite bad becos her blood pressure is quite low...then she managed to stay there for two weeks...few daes ago,the doctor said she was nt ready for discharged and will passed away half wae thru back home in the ambulance.but it did nt.she managed to reach home and the doctors were shocked and surprised...they did nt expect her to reach home....HALLELUJAH...there a reason behing it,the dae after pastor khong preach that God is a healer and He WANTS to heal,i was nt quite confident abt it,but gt no choice,i had to bring up tt faith,i reach the hospital in her ward,i said a silent prayer....and guess wad,the next dae,her breathing and pulse were under control,but the blood pressure was still low....i prayed for the whole week like nv prayed be4..then i finally prayed tt for wtv sin or barrier blocking from healing,i prayed tt He will cleans and clear all the blocking,then the next dae i went to see her,her blood pressure gt control.AMEN~ thank GOd for everything..rilli...he done alot of thing and i am going to trust him although this shld be in the first place.AMEN
SIMPLE ME
Y 9:30 PM
Y 9:30 PM
Monday, December 04, 2006
WEE~this few daes lazy to come back to blog...but kinda miss the blog...so come back le...lol...
Fridae=me,gina,peixin,angeline,weejie,geng hiang went to escape.damm super fun la....we were plaeing the wet and wild,the motor boat and we got ourself damm super wet..then when gina and angeline went to plae the rainbow,i and peixin went to sit the cirle circle thing.lol....our pants were wet,so when u gt of the ride,the staff don let ppl go sit there...we were kinda piss of...lol....haha...we spent the whole dae there..from morning 10am till nite 7pm...after that,gt a call from friend,went to east coast park to find them,at 9.30,went home.zzz....and wait for the next dae for YA
Saturdae=the same thing,went to young arrows again...kinda headache on tt dae.....and i m supposed to lead games.....omg....haha....actually decided to plae musical chairs,but in the end,plae dog and bones....awhile ltr,tt cute little ahmad sae wan go toilet,so i brought him to toilet,when we came back,the game is over...dotz..is like awhile nia...=.= then we went in to get the ball and we plaed posion ball and captain ball.....half wae thru,Ahmad don wan plae....then i brought him go walk walk....then walk till the room....then ben syrup taste abit nt sweet,so i tiking of taking over.then i wan to do it,tt small little gal,sae,'don wan la,don wan he'which is me' do,he do nt nice de.....blah blah blah',then i was like abit irritated....so i juz throw the 'scoop' onto the basin....i tik they were quite shocked lo.....i tik the kids were sensitive,so they were like 'er....y he like tt de?'haix...then blah blah blah blah..till the games is over,then i was calling andrew...then they suddenly close the light,i smelt somthing fishy,then they were there singing birthdae song for me...kinda suprised...nt kinda..is veri.haha....tt rilli lighten me up.....it was a chocolate truffle cake..and is damm super nice...so after tt,took pics wif ahmad and xiao hei and qiuyu.she is a nice gal.and i donno y,my photo look super sucky..and ahmad was there using my phone to take pic..lol...tt 'bird' also use my phone to take photo...
dosent he look so cute in this two pics??><
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<'bird' and Ahmad
Little Ahmad
After Ya,went to meet the cell to so called pei the army boy as a cell...so went kbox and so on..went to meet aaron to go tgt wif his friends for the marathon the next dae
Sundae=My first marathon in my life and is on my birthdae...receive alot of sms from my friends.the first one is the alwas who ever rmb my birthdae,she was my pri sch friend..haha...i was so cannot sleep la...turn for 4h still cannot sleep...when i reach the U-turn point,i was humming to myself,two songs
Heaven is a wonderful place,
filled with glory and grace
I wan to see my saviour face,heaven is a wonderful place
We are marching in the light of God,we are marching in the light of God
we are marching,marching,marching yiwhoooo~,we are marching in the light of God.
at last i reach the finishing point,i was like almost faint...haha..manage to walk back to andrew and clarence who was there looking after our bags.thanks them for it.ha.then went to bath and meet for lunch and went to expo for service..omg...service was veri bad....i was sleeping thru out the whole sermon and for cell..i manage to stay awake....donno y alvin don wan call me up...lol....after cell...went to hav dinner with kenny,which long time no see le,andrew,sky and syl....we were eating at marine parade.the 'zi cha'...lol...after eating,they went to watch movie which i did nt go....haha...reach home..'pom!!'on the bed and sleep till todae 12.30..haha
I know the post is long..haha...lol
Fridae=me,gina,peixin,angeline,weejie,geng hiang went to escape.damm super fun la....we were plaeing the wet and wild,the motor boat and we got ourself damm super wet..then when gina and angeline went to plae the rainbow,i and peixin went to sit the cirle circle thing.lol....our pants were wet,so when u gt of the ride,the staff don let ppl go sit there...we were kinda piss of...lol....haha...we spent the whole dae there..from morning 10am till nite 7pm...after that,gt a call from friend,went to east coast park to find them,at 9.30,went home.zzz....and wait for the next dae for YA
Saturdae=the same thing,went to young arrows again...kinda headache on tt dae.....and i m supposed to lead games.....omg....haha....actually decided to plae musical chairs,but in the end,plae dog and bones....awhile ltr,tt cute little ahmad sae wan go toilet,so i brought him to toilet,when we came back,the game is over...dotz..is like awhile nia...=.= then we went in to get the ball and we plaed posion ball and captain ball.....half wae thru,Ahmad don wan plae....then i brought him go walk walk....then walk till the room....then ben syrup taste abit nt sweet,so i tiking of taking over.then i wan to do it,tt small little gal,sae,'don wan la,don wan he'which is me' do,he do nt nice de.....blah blah blah',then i was like abit irritated....so i juz throw the 'scoop' onto the basin....i tik they were quite shocked lo.....i tik the kids were sensitive,so they were like 'er....y he like tt de?'haix...then blah blah blah blah..till the games is over,then i was calling andrew...then they suddenly close the light,i smelt somthing fishy,then they were there singing birthdae song for me...kinda suprised...nt kinda..is veri.haha....tt rilli lighten me up.....it was a chocolate truffle cake..and is damm super nice...so after tt,took pics wif ahmad and xiao hei and qiuyu.she is a nice gal.and i donno y,my photo look super sucky..and ahmad was there using my phone to take pic..lol...tt 'bird' also use my phone to take photo...
dosent he look so cute in this two pics??><
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<'bird' and Ahmad
Little AhmadAfter Ya,went to meet the cell to so called pei the army boy as a cell...so went kbox and so on..went to meet aaron to go tgt wif his friends for the marathon the next dae
Sundae=My first marathon in my life and is on my birthdae...receive alot of sms from my friends.the first one is the alwas who ever rmb my birthdae,she was my pri sch friend..haha...i was so cannot sleep la...turn for 4h still cannot sleep...when i reach the U-turn point,i was humming to myself,two songs
Heaven is a wonderful place,
filled with glory and grace
I wan to see my saviour face,heaven is a wonderful place
We are marching in the light of God,we are marching in the light of God
we are marching,marching,marching yiwhoooo~,we are marching in the light of God.
at last i reach the finishing point,i was like almost faint...haha..manage to walk back to andrew and clarence who was there looking after our bags.thanks them for it.ha.then went to bath and meet for lunch and went to expo for service..omg...service was veri bad....i was sleeping thru out the whole sermon and for cell..i manage to stay awake....donno y alvin don wan call me up...lol....after cell...went to hav dinner with kenny,which long time no see le,andrew,sky and syl....we were eating at marine parade.the 'zi cha'...lol...after eating,they went to watch movie which i did nt go....haha...reach home..'pom!!'on the bed and sleep till todae 12.30..haha
I know the post is long..haha...lol
SIMPLE ME
Y 2:34 PM
Y 2:34 PM
