Todae...raining...super cold la...brought jacket to sch...dene seems to like my jacket alot....and is like..hole here and there...zip spoil..lol...mayb she oni like the smell of the jacket...haha....so...during recess...this guy was there...like di xiao him...and he is like already veri ke lian..so..i juz sae...'aiya...stop it le la....' then he gav me attitude saeing 'u can control me ar?wad u wan?u can control me ar?' i was like...k...fine....be patient wif it....then actually wan tok back the..then the other guy sae...u also another wan..don touch me...i was like..wtf?i was helping u and then u reprimand me??fine...i don care..juz walk away...somehow..it spoils my mood for the dae...then...after sch...stayed back for SS consultation since dene gt consultation till 4.30..i rather study in class...so...mood quite irritated at tt time..then..i juz move my chair upwards and actually sitting beside zoei..then..i tot...i move left..let dionis and them sit tgt..then when i shift ther..then..they sae...dionis sit there wan...u sit there for wad...then i sae...i tot u all sit tgt wan...they sae..ya la...but u tik so small space can meh..i mean..hello..there was enuff space lo...then...jolin still sae i petty...i mean hello....carn u juz see im nt in the correct mood??and 4 gals to one guy...shoot like siao...so..i tot..'aiya...forget it.....todae sway la...'then move to the back cool down a while...then mmove back to the front sit with brian and chee how and afiq and szean...at least learn abit....so...after consultation...rest awhile...then continue to do my homework and revision...i find tt revision in class is a gd thing..so quiet....peaceful....that the enviroment i wan man!!!so..listening to mp3 and doing EL and chem...then dene came to find me after her consultation...she can feel tt...i somehow nt in the correct mood..so..she left early(sri dene!!!!)...so..i alone in the classroom continue to do my work...at least i learnt something in the textbk of chem..haha....and i also use the opportunity to get back to God...spent time wif Him..had been unable to spent time with Him and really feel guilty about it....so...all the wae..till 4.30 pm...went home and then...pomp on the bed...super comfortable la....study the whole dae....haha...then..went to prepare basic dinner for the family since the whole family is out and then no one cook and plan to eat packet which is like...also ex...yup....after that..sms her...omg...im crazy liao....keep tiking of her....but...erm...im crazy about God even more!yup...^.^

to my lao pa in christ:i could not find you when i nid you....and i could nt feel the father's love that were meant for me....i wonder...is u pity me then u take me or u are using me or u rilli want to take gd care of me....everytime..after service....u r lost...and same..im like a 3 year old kid who is lost in the streets....couldnt find the parents....i don expect u rilli scarifice for me...but..at least...the basic love tt i wan...can u gib me that??