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Flavian( flaveeyearn)
Sunday, January 28, 2007
haix....i don even know wad to type...i tik write a lousy poem bah...my first poem in my life...xD
I squat down there
tiking wad to do
singing..
'Give Thanks'
hoping tt they will giv me something
tt i always wanted from them
but they don wan to gib me
they left me alone there
only when i automatic stand
no one to tok to
sms her
In tt cold place,
ppl gt ppl to tok to
i,
sitting alone there
donno wad to do..
almost cried
wad are friends?
i carn tell them how i feel
but to keep to myself
smsing her,
telling her i m weak
she care for me,
and scold,
'Y do u always listen to your God?'
I love Him,
Cannot live without His mercy and grace
am i tt useless?
m i immature?
y carn i serve in anithin?
don sae carn...sae...
y carn i serve in the things i rilli want to serve
going home,
cried in bus,
y m i such an idotic person
wad are friends?
i treat them as one,
do they treat me as one??
Y do they always left me out in the circle?
God,help me...i rilli feel like crying out loud...i rilli wan to cry...im juz holding it...i feel so weak...i nid your warmth,i nid your love..i nid your mercy..draw me back to You...tears keep dropping inside me,pain in my heart,how?how?how?
I squat down there
tiking wad to do
singing..
'Give Thanks'
hoping tt they will giv me something
tt i always wanted from them
but they don wan to gib me
they left me alone there
only when i automatic stand
no one to tok to
sms her
In tt cold place,
ppl gt ppl to tok to
i,
sitting alone there
donno wad to do..
almost cried
wad are friends?
i carn tell them how i feel
but to keep to myself
smsing her,
telling her i m weak
she care for me,
and scold,
'Y do u always listen to your God?'
I love Him,
Cannot live without His mercy and grace
am i tt useless?
m i immature?
y carn i serve in anithin?
don sae carn...sae...
y carn i serve in the things i rilli want to serve
going home,
cried in bus,
y m i such an idotic person
wad are friends?
i treat them as one,
do they treat me as one??
Y do they always left me out in the circle?
God,help me...i rilli feel like crying out loud...i rilli wan to cry...im juz holding it...i feel so weak...i nid your warmth,i nid your love..i nid your mercy..draw me back to You...tears keep dropping inside me,pain in my heart,how?how?how?
SIMPLE ME
Y 12:30 AM
Y 12:30 AM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Thank God for showing me and guiding me in this few weeks for wad is called love...i shandnt sae becos..i find it too nt ok for it to post in blog...but perhaps i will tok to zr about it...i sin against God and i m willing to repent...i follow the wrong route by turning my church friends away...i want to repent in front of God...i rilli thank Him for teaching me and i learnt something new...Praise the Lord!!!i tik todae all sorts of unlucky stuff may be hinting me about todae...yup....if u want to know the full story....i might sae it out..depending on whu u are....
SIMPLE ME
Y 8:12 PM
Y 8:12 PM
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Why?!Why?! I tot U,the Almighty wan,said that U loved us,and even died on the cross for us,why?why had u let both of us and even my friends to suffer like this??i m frustated for him tt y u had gib him so many problems juz like the last year of me and U won use me to share about You?he is my best pal and u expect me to sit down and watching a movie on how his life is struggling??
When i flash back,i rmb how Sky,Syl and the rest guided me my christian path and teaching me stuff....y i carn juz use it to help him?his problems are like mountain....i help him,he said tt my words are like bullets and use to shoot ppl when i m trying to help him to draw himself out of the darkness side of his life...
I still hav to thank God...I carn blame God on why he had make his life so miserable or so bad....I had to thank him tt he gav me this task...to help him...which is still in mission....i prayed tt He will continue to use me to tok to him lo...and to bless me and the person....
Heavenly Father ,Lord Jesus,I thank you for wadever things u had done tt affect our daily lives,i prayed that,no matter wad happen,you will be still bless me ,i prayed tt u will continue to giv both us your wisdom and of course to win her to christ thru me.I also prayed tt u will blessed his life wif less problems as u will continue to use me as your tool to tok to him.Giv me wisdom tt will let him udst his life tt U the almight one had died on the cross for him and will take away his burdens and fears...i thank you in the name of Jesus tt the blood of Jesus will continue to rain down on us,pour out your love for us and i thank you,and i commit our lives to u in Jesus name,Amen!
When i flash back,i rmb how Sky,Syl and the rest guided me my christian path and teaching me stuff....y i carn juz use it to help him?his problems are like mountain....i help him,he said tt my words are like bullets and use to shoot ppl when i m trying to help him to draw himself out of the darkness side of his life...
I still hav to thank God...I carn blame God on why he had make his life so miserable or so bad....I had to thank him tt he gav me this task...to help him...which is still in mission....i prayed tt He will continue to use me to tok to him lo...and to bless me and the person....
Heavenly Father ,Lord Jesus,I thank you for wadever things u had done tt affect our daily lives,i prayed that,no matter wad happen,you will be still bless me ,i prayed tt u will continue to giv both us your wisdom and of course to win her to christ thru me.I also prayed tt u will blessed his life wif less problems as u will continue to use me as your tool to tok to him.Giv me wisdom tt will let him udst his life tt U the almight one had died on the cross for him and will take away his burdens and fears...i thank you in the name of Jesus tt the blood of Jesus will continue to rain down on us,pour out your love for us and i thank you,and i commit our lives to u in Jesus name,Amen!
SIMPLE ME
Y 1:50 PM
Y 1:50 PM
Monday, January 22, 2007
wad God rilli want me to do??win the person to christ thru good relationship??i don tik so....and my friends....God wan me how to put my trust on them??my studies...God wan me to use my result to tell my parents,wif God,i can do well?my life....does God wan me to encounter failures and to learn from there???i can do nth to it...but as teh lord lead thru my feelings bah...
SIMPLE ME
Y 4:07 PM
Y 4:07 PM
Sunday, January 21, 2007
woah..three daes in camp...is a torture....but quite fun la..get to plae wif a lot of high elements...like flying fox...on the last dae of camp...quite hard to leave teh camp...carn bear to leave the camp..haha...after tt reach home and 'pomp' on the bed...and sleep....till the next dae...the next dae at YA..ask pam,'have i got tanner?'
'YES!!u had!!'haha....looks like the three daes sun tanning actually works...haha...after ya....wa...actually wanted to go to Eunos de...then take bus 33 to kenbangan..then walk wrong direction..walk till siglap connection park...i tot got bus stop after tt..don hav..then continue to walk stragight...walk walk walk..walk till where i also donno when i finally found the blk which sae bedok resivor..i was like..wa..walk till so far le....then when i gt out of the place...at last i saw a bus stop..i thank God for the bus stop...then i was quite happy to see bus 22 there...i keep thanking God...then after tt i tot i saw a bus 22....i board and found out tt it is bus 21..yuan ting sae i blur like sotong...lol....lucky the bus stop around enous area...and i took bus 25 back...phew...actually walk like this nvm de...it rain somemore!!!!!wth...in the bus...everyone was looking at me y i so wet..haha...
Todae went for SOL 1...pastor jeffery is a funny and kind pastor...he can make all sorts of jokes tt make ppl laugh...he ask some ppl some question
pastor Jeffery:wad kind of song u like?
another person:huh?
pastor Jeffery:do u know tt the song 'huh' is veri famous?everyone like to listen to the song 'huh'
the person:...
Pastor Jeffery:wad kind of song u like?
Me:any song....
Pastor Jeffery:huh?!HILLSONGS?shan ge??
Me:no la...ani song...
Pastor Jeffery:ooooh..kk...
he can make the whole lesson veri fun de..haha...
During service...same thing..help out in log...wee.at last do lag..last week nv do....veri umcomfortable..haha....then after service...was toking to ZR about my camp thing..to account to him la...then in MRT also tok..yep...juz to account to him...nw todae is a gd dae..tml is going to be a better dae!!
oh ya..todae in service..sang a worship song..it rilli touch me alot...i like it alot..and God touch me with this song,'Faithful God'
'YES!!u had!!'haha....looks like the three daes sun tanning actually works...haha...after ya....wa...actually wanted to go to Eunos de...then take bus 33 to kenbangan..then walk wrong direction..walk till siglap connection park...i tot got bus stop after tt..don hav..then continue to walk stragight...walk walk walk..walk till where i also donno when i finally found the blk which sae bedok resivor..i was like..wa..walk till so far le....then when i gt out of the place...at last i saw a bus stop..i thank God for the bus stop...then i was quite happy to see bus 22 there...i keep thanking God...then after tt i tot i saw a bus 22....i board and found out tt it is bus 21..yuan ting sae i blur like sotong...lol....lucky the bus stop around enous area...and i took bus 25 back...phew...actually walk like this nvm de...it rain somemore!!!!!wth...in the bus...everyone was looking at me y i so wet..haha...
Todae went for SOL 1...pastor jeffery is a funny and kind pastor...he can make all sorts of jokes tt make ppl laugh...he ask some ppl some question
pastor Jeffery:wad kind of song u like?
another person:huh?
pastor Jeffery:do u know tt the song 'huh' is veri famous?everyone like to listen to the song 'huh'
the person:...
Pastor Jeffery:wad kind of song u like?
Me:any song....
Pastor Jeffery:huh?!HILLSONGS?shan ge??
Me:no la...ani song...
Pastor Jeffery:ooooh..kk...
he can make the whole lesson veri fun de..haha...
During service...same thing..help out in log...wee.at last do lag..last week nv do....veri umcomfortable..haha....then after service...was toking to ZR about my camp thing..to account to him la...then in MRT also tok..yep...juz to account to him...nw todae is a gd dae..tml is going to be a better dae!!
oh ya..todae in service..sang a worship song..it rilli touch me alot...i like it alot..and God touch me with this song,'Faithful God'
SIMPLE ME
Y 6:05 PM
Y 6:05 PM
Monday, January 15, 2007
todae went to sch....classes are so boring...then all the wae untill physics lesson...tt amin and they all veri bad...they bully huei yang...ha...i don wish to sae or post up videos and pictures becos too personal le..haha..now waiting for the next dae liao...
SIMPLE ME
Y 7:12 PM
Y 7:12 PM
back to blog..
Todae went to bring Gina to church..wa...ask her go inside the hall 10..is like killing her life..and i donno why she is stress...but i tik is becos of the devils work..asking her to leave and keep attacking her...she keep saeing to herself tt she cannot do it becos too many ppl le...then i was there encouraging her...i pity her...i see her...it hurt my heart or rather sae....i m frustated for her... and was there asking God...why God want to make us to suffer....since He loves us so much...i got the answer in the sermon...in 2 Tim 3:12,it is said tt if we want to be like Christ,we will be persecuated...imagine a non christian went to see this verse???i was kinda shock...
I also thank God for letting Gina stay thru out the service...i told her she can leave at 2.30....but she did nt...in fact she sae she will stay till 3.30 and she stay till around 3.45...although is oni 15min plus..but i still thank God for her....haha...i told her to treat the gate as a barrier...after pass thru the barrier,she will be save and will feel the presence of the Holy Spirit...haha....of course...i also find it kind of meaningful..haha....now i m waiting for 10 feb,so tt i can bring yuan ting to magicbox...
After service..was having cell group...before cell group,icebreakers...haha...damm funny la....cell group till 6 plus...almost kena chase out of expo..the person was there grumbling le...then after cell group,toking to sky about gina....i can tell u...i tok till donno where i m going...i m suppose to go take mrt,yet..i walk till the bus stop..so..aiya...nvm...take bus to parkwae and take bus 76 back...so..me,sky and andrew went to take bus to parkwae...in bus...something happen to me...i feel myself so irritating and been seeking attention from both of them....i carn stop the tiking....alamak....so...i bo bian...listening to my worship songs and seeking help from God...God remind me of the song never let me go...he prompt me tt...no matter wad...he will nv let me go and go on my waes...
haix...sometimes...i m envy of ppl who relationship are veri gd...as in friendship la...they are like wad we call 'brothers4ever'....i envy becos..i carn rilli be like them wif my friends....don udst..nvm...
10 feb!!!faster come!!!!i wanna brng yuan ting to magicbox and know U,the almighty wan!!
Todae went to bring Gina to church..wa...ask her go inside the hall 10..is like killing her life..and i donno why she is stress...but i tik is becos of the devils work..asking her to leave and keep attacking her...she keep saeing to herself tt she cannot do it becos too many ppl le...then i was there encouraging her...i pity her...i see her...it hurt my heart or rather sae....i m frustated for her... and was there asking God...why God want to make us to suffer....since He loves us so much...i got the answer in the sermon...in 2 Tim 3:12,it is said tt if we want to be like Christ,we will be persecuated...imagine a non christian went to see this verse???i was kinda shock...
I also thank God for letting Gina stay thru out the service...i told her she can leave at 2.30....but she did nt...in fact she sae she will stay till 3.30 and she stay till around 3.45...although is oni 15min plus..but i still thank God for her....haha...i told her to treat the gate as a barrier...after pass thru the barrier,she will be save and will feel the presence of the Holy Spirit...haha....of course...i also find it kind of meaningful..haha....now i m waiting for 10 feb,so tt i can bring yuan ting to magicbox...
After service..was having cell group...before cell group,icebreakers...haha...damm funny la....cell group till 6 plus...almost kena chase out of expo..the person was there grumbling le...then after cell group,toking to sky about gina....i can tell u...i tok till donno where i m going...i m suppose to go take mrt,yet..i walk till the bus stop..so..aiya...nvm...take bus to parkwae and take bus 76 back...so..me,sky and andrew went to take bus to parkwae...in bus...something happen to me...i feel myself so irritating and been seeking attention from both of them....i carn stop the tiking....alamak....so...i bo bian...listening to my worship songs and seeking help from God...God remind me of the song never let me go...he prompt me tt...no matter wad...he will nv let me go and go on my waes...
haix...sometimes...i m envy of ppl who relationship are veri gd...as in friendship la...they are like wad we call 'brothers4ever'....i envy becos..i carn rilli be like them wif my friends....don udst..nvm...
10 feb!!!faster come!!!!i wanna brng yuan ting to magicbox and know U,the almighty wan!!
SIMPLE ME
Y 1:14 PM
Y 1:14 PM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
todae first dae!!!and wear long pants..morning is like so shiok!!wear long pants to school..although i look wierd...but after recess...wa...hot like no one business...lol...and classes are so boring except for mrs thiruman class...haha...after tt...went to j8 with yahui and may....actually wanna watch death note 2 de...but selling fast..left first row..don wan le..-.-''' then they wan to watch charlotte's web...i don wan...is so boring and i watch before le...lol...then nvm..went to popular and walk walk walk walk......leg veri pain..then at 5+..about to go home...saw isabel at the interchange....then took bus back and reach home...waiting for the next dae..haha
SIMPLE ME
Y 6:34 PM
Y 6:34 PM
