back to blog le......my one week holidae was veri fun!!and thanks to the G12 and thank pastor cesar as he preach a veri powerful message!!!and i thank God tt i did nt went to nco cam,becosif i go nco camp,i don tik God can show me wad He wan me to do!!'clap clap' praise Him!!

att he encounter camp...it was veri gd...as in..i mean it is nt the gd..but is veri powerful,even better then my previous wan...but somehow...pride has always gt into the wae....but...benjamin tt sentence to me...had become veri jia lat lo...'....don sin animore,as in..try nt to sin......'something like tt...but the devils is like making out a fun of me la.....haix....

then after service and cell group,went for touch young arrows camp...it was super tiring la....but i enjoyed it!!!i rilli thank God tt i did nt die out of shock and tireness...you may ask..shock..wad shock??i was about to go and collect a pail ma...so...i went to the boys toilet...so..all the cubicles are open except for one...so..i push the closed cubicle...the door was lock...so i bent down...and saw the pail tt i nid...so..i push again..to comfirm tt the door is closed...the door is rilli lock...so..it kind of freak me off...i faster leave the toilet...and i rmb i off the light and at tt time...no one was allow to go into the toilet yet...when i came back again...the lights is on...i was like...OH GOSH!!!!so..i was like...argh....then i juz act nth had happen....i mean...it was freaky la....kk...nt tok about this animore....the kids are veri cute la....i can still rmb after the hike....in the bus..i was like veri shag liao..then the kid are toking and laughiing veri loud...i was nt irritated...but i feel tt...it was sweet of them..i donno why la...but...the more they laugh..the more i feel happier...lol....there was one kid i forgot le....i was sleeping halfwae...she come and pull my cheek....i was like...aww....normally...if my friends do tt to me..i would scold like shyt and giv the pissed off face..but on tt dae..i did nt...i continue laughing wif the kids...haha...so cute....i mean the kid veri cute...haha...then went reach the sch...i help to prepare to the campfire...veri veri veri tired...when i cannot help it animore...i juz 'pomp' on the table and sleep till the campfire end and then amanda came to wake me up...so..after clearing the camp fire stuff,yiji offered to bring the log to mac....so...me,winnie,yiji and amanda went to mac...actually wanted call benjamin,but...he was sleeping like log...no matter wad..he will nt wake up..so no choice...yup...then on the last day,i was like...'YEAH!!!!!!can go home le!!!!'...carn wait to go home...so..the kids left....but..i can see tears rolling down their eyes...sae honestly...although i didnt get to tok with kids much..but...i see le..i also feel like crying...i see them when i was doing log..on how much they are having fun..then at last going home...yup...when the kids went back le...me,joash,winnie,jenna sat down and tok about the 'stories' we had gone through..haha..jenna scared like..haha..but its normal..i also feel quite freaky when heard winnie 'stories'..haha...so...after tt...the committee gt de breif...yup..so...help to look after the stuff...someone said i was nt hardworking enuff in the camp and do nt hav initiative in alot of things...hello...my first time lei...u carn possibility expect much rite?i had already done my veri best in everthing le...haix....so....after the everything....i was super duper shag....haha....so shared cab with winnie,boon bing....yup...reach home sleep like log....

next day is G12!!!!weee~!i went in to worship and get high!!!haha...pastor cesar was a man with strong faith..i was qutie amazed by his faith when i myself carn possible to bring myself to hav tt big faith.his one sentence struck me..'it is important to take the first step.' this sentence had suddenly brought me many vision...yup...so i was expecting zr to be there...yup....on the second nite...pastor cesar ask that who wants the love from the Father,got to the altar call...i responded...yes..i did feel God there...but i carn feel the warm of father....so...i was kind of 'desperate'...i was desperrate for the love of father...which means..i was expecting zr to be there....haix...too bad...nvm..he is busy and tt all i know...on the last day of G12...i was like super hyper la...worshipping like no one business like tt...haha....

on sunday..service.....do log....was quite fed up...the whole system had change on tt dae la....veri luan....so...i don rilli hav the mood to concentrate on worshpping the Lord...i felt guilty and pray the sinner's prayer...so after service....no cell group..haha...so..the whole touch young arrows leaders went for dinner at dobby xchange for dinner...yup...then after tt..they go watch movie and then i go home...yup....then sms someone...becos...they are tiking of going to a trip...then i ask him whether he wan to go for race or trip..he told me...'u gib the form le then if can then i go..' i scold him irresponsible...rilli its the fact...i gt super pissed off by him..and he is mocking my english standard when he said i do nt know the meaning and do nt know how to use the word irresponsible...wtf...he is stepping on me..he can denied it..but..i do nt nid everyone comment in it....i know myself and my standard of english and i do not nid him to come and critisize me...its nt i wan to be angry about it...he don come is ok...but he is trying to humiliate me...hello,i still gt my 'zi zun xin'!!!don act as if u know everything,so u mean u can use reason sick and then go for the trip??yes!the organiser does nt know and the participant will lose..so u mean tt..if u sick,u will nt come and race and then go for the trip??i m nt stopping u or wad...but,please..i m nt a three year old kid..and i know my level of english,if i donno,i will ask,don act as if your english veri pro like tt...argh!!!!

Todae,in class.....was smsing someone...so...u know...my heart was rilli veri hurt and down...so...i nid a listening ear..i know i should find zr...but..at tt time...all i know tt he is busy..so i approach her....and i feel much better...so...i ask her....should i tell zr about it???yes tt her answer..and in fact...i should had tell zr wad happen....so...yup...i told him and then he told me tok to him at nite...and nw...waiting for him to online to tell him....yup....haix....

this is year of victory,but no war,no victory..so i won be defeated easily...