Dear uncle ah hock...i think the last time i talk to you or meet you was 2 years ago,where grandma was still in hospital..we had lunch together at the canteen nearby...and you paid for my lunch...that was the last time i met you...today..i got the news that,you had went back to the Lord..It somehow brought back the memories...the time when we went KL,other countries..together with the family...and it hurts me...i was about to visit you today...and mom told me that you had passed away few days ago...im sorry...i tot we could talk again like the past...but the Lord choose to bring you back home today...im glad and im happy for you..now you are seating beside the thrown of the king...i donno what to say...but...I miss you...bless aunty Florence and your children up there...I'll miss you always..

was kinda shock of the news of it...i just wanted to visit him and mom told me...that he already passed away...i actually wanted to go for the funeral..but when mom told me...its at singapore casket association..it freaks me off...im sorry...ah hock uncle...i don even dare to go in...and my mom told me what happen ytd..third uncle..wanted to take the stairs down to the level 1 cause lift too pack...but then when walking some level down....he suddenly saw a monk sitting at the stairs there...alone!!i was like..omgosh!!!and whats more...its errie inside..and the staircase got no lights!!think the only light source is that it came from inside...every floor there funeral...which makes it even "ulu"!!and...im not those high faith kind...sorry.sad to say..and i don want to play with fire..so don wan go...later get possesed by some evil spirit...drama ya..but...to play safe...come to think of it...ok..stopping here...

Today woke up early to go for morning service...think God somehow spoke to me...just like paul..i had skin problem...donno how to spell...but..he choose to have faith in God,and when after praying and fasting,God ask him a question.."if i healed you,will you still worship me?" this question...it ponder in my heart alot...if God really heals me,will i be back like the "christian" life??all i could say is that...Lord renew my faith!!!i wanna have the fire always!!!im sorry that..i doubt you and my faith to you...you know what i mean...Lord renew me,make me a strong warrior...let the weak say im strong,let the poor say im rich..because of You...you are the saviour King,the one who always brought me through circumstances..i unblock anything inside me,and Holy Spirit,minister to me,protect me with the shield of faith,lift me up,so that..i will be attack by the arrows flying around in the day,tigers at night..and none of my foot hitting the ground..cause of your amazing grace,im forgiven...i've backslided,now im back again..the faith renew to fight for you again..don let go of me,hold me tight,make me,mold me,use me,so that i may be a fruitful and faithful son of Yours...i won hold back anymore...i wont say,"I wont go down...im afraid.." Evil Spirits...get away from me!you have no control of me..who are you to say im weak,God do not want me?get a life outside...i don need you...shoo!Lord send your angels protecting me,not only me,but my house,none of the devil will come in...chase them out and get out in the mighty name of Jesus,others might mock at me,but i won mock at the Him,everything had been done on the cross..I not gonna be blinded by your tricks and serve the Lord with my heart..you are so ugly that it makes me puke when i see you...who wants to be your son?wait long long also i won bow down to you...try harder on making me backslide again...you can take everything away from me,but...i won be affect by that..good things,i praise God,bad things,i also thank Him..not you...and i speak boldly that,YOU HAVE NO CONTROL IN ME,so get lost!!Lord im submit to you...and you are my Lord of all..it all started with a kissed being sealed...psalms 2..bless me with what you hear,see what you see,speak what you speak..judge me not from what i done,but what you want me to do..give me open doors and guide me and lead me to the cross and Lord,if i said a vulgar..prompt me,strike me with a headache or whatso ever,cause i want to be clean and pure in your eyes...thank you in Your mighty name i pray,amen!

ok..it just an adult service and i have to admit,im being touch by God i think?if not i won type all this out...all i can say that..my life had been greatly changed after accpeting christianity...im back again...no longer backslided..the feeling suck...haha..=)

The God i know..its really amazing...=)